hello!

things are good lately! the break is so nice, but i’m getting kind of antsy and just want to go back to school. i’m graduating college in 4 months and i have my most difficult semester ahead of me. soooo, let’s get started, shall we? things have been rough with losing my brother. i’m trying to cope with it, but still have the worst days i could ever imagine. i just can’t even comprehend how much i miss him sometimes, and it just gets to become too much. i know he wouldn’t want me to feel this way and be upset, but life is so hard without your older brother.

i contacted school districts about a week ago, and hardly ANYONE even answered me back. i have a 3.7 GPA and one of the most stacked resumes ever. like, what’s the problem?! i know i have time, i’m just kind of frustrated because i really just want to graduate and LEAVE. gain independence. live somewhere new. get out of here! not to say i’m ungrateful for all of the wonderful things i’m blessed with here, but i’m 22 and need to see more of life than this town has to offer.

things with dan are doing okay, i’m just getting a little stir crazy of his constant ANTICS. i mean, i love him, but boys honestly drive me insane! i’m sure he says the same thing, but whatever! i just want a nice, calm relationship while everyone around me is cheating on each other and fighting and clawing each other’s eyes out. i feel like we’ve worked hard enough to deserve that.

but, i’ll write soon. hope things are beautiful with you.

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