okay. so i usually dont do a lot of posts where i like, pour my little heart out, but idk. im real in the mood.

i’d just like to take the time to really tell everyone how grateful i am for everything and everyone that i have in my life. sometimes, i’m just completely blown away by how many people in my life care about me SO MUCH. to the point where i know that if i ever needed ANYTHING AT ALL, they would be right by my side no matter what. this year has been a little rocky so far, and everytime i have needed someone, there they were. i just, never really thought i would find friends who would love me as much as they do. these people go out of their way to make sure that i’m happy. idk how i ever got so lucky. i have my three h.s. best friends, alaina, merissia, and kris, who i honestly DO NOT know what i would do w/o. they are really my backbone. i kno they support me in every single thing that i do, and every decision that i make. and are okay w/me crying about nothing, and shakin my butt in the face and are perfectly content w/ just watching dirty dancing all night and eating pepperoni rolls w/ me. and then i have my older crew, which consist mainly of jenna, ange, and tom. and idk KNOW where i would be w/o them. even tonight, i honestly, NEVER have as much fun as i do just baking brownies and cookies w/ them, and dancing to “WHO LET THE DOGS OUT” for two hours. they know exactly what to do to make me happy when i’m even BORDERLINE sad. they care about me SO MUCH, and are always giving me advice, even if they know i never listen to it, and they love me no matter what. then i have my boys that i can sing, dance and go crazy w/ against me! and panic! at the disco, and the boys who will tell me i look soso pretty even when i just got a cavity filled and i look like an IDIOT. and will help me pick out flats at target and pick out belts in old navy.

sometimes, i just get so jaded by the things that seem like they are a big deal. and i know, deep down, they’re not.
everything that seems even a little wrong, i just dont want to even bother w/ it anymore. bc the people i have, they just feel SO right.
even if we are sitting in silence, i know that the care about me more than i could have ever even hoped that anyone would.
thanks for being so perfect. i can’t wait to spend another 3408309834 million years w/ you guys. ❤

“and I cannot help but hold on to a handful of times
when what was spoken was a revolution in itself,
and what we were doing was the only thing that mattered.
and how good it felt to kill the memory
of nights spent holding your shirt for the smell;
I heard you used to cry when you made love to him,
but this band will play on
because all we can do is what we’ve always done
and on and on and on…”