i’m thankful for the wonderful people i have in my life. including my best friend, courtney, who knows me inside and out, and my boyfriend, dan, who is the best person i’ve ever met. my mom and dad, who love me unconditionally, even if i drive them insane. :0) my grandma, who makes me laugh harder than ANYONE, and my brother, and theresa, his fiancee. i’m happy that everyone i care about is happy and healthy, and that i’m fortunate enough to have such awesome people surrounding me during the holidays. happy thanksgiving!
dear dan (just incase you so happen to see this),
i know that sometimes i’m a brat, sometimes i don’t want to hug. sometimes i get grump, sometimes, i’m way too difficult. sometimes, i probably drive you absolutely nuts. but i think i just want to get down in writing how much i love you. and it’s weird, because i’m not really a girl who says that word that much because a) i hate when people say it and obviously don’t mean it and b) usually i get so creeped by saying it that i start doubting the relationship and thinking up an escape plan.
but i really do love you. i think it’s one of those things where i kind of feel like i have for such a long time, but like we should have, i feel like we really gave it time, and most importantly, we grew together with absolutely no expectations, no fake ideals, none of that. before we even dated, you saw me laugh, cry, freak out, dressed up, a huge mess, angry, irritated, depressed, hopeless, ecstatic, and probably every other thing in the book. and rather than get freaked out about it, you learned how to be my best friend. when i was busy being broken up with, you were the one who picked me up from my house to walk around nockamixon, when i didnt want to see ANYONE else. the one who decided peach cobbler is actually the cure to cramps? the boy i ditched, but ran back to when my oh so mature/great boyfriend actually decided he didnt want to go to prom with me anymore. and you never asked for anything in return. you butted in front of me in all the lines to buy my movie tickets/food/everything, when i was too preoccupied with my own life to even give you the appreciation that you deserved for so long.
but it’s okay, because i can now.
thanks a lot for being the only boy i thought about (even when i had other people to think about). the only boy who may have hurt me, but honestly completely reconstructed a friendship before ANYTHING, that i thought was dead and gone for good. for letting me scream at you when my problems had NOTHING to do with you. for getting paint on your pants so we could paint courtney’s birthday bicycle. for ordering me 100000 dollars worth of stuff on urban outfitters, and for totally breaking me into this whole “live like ur rich (even though ur obviously not)” thing. for watching movies with me, and not being embarassed when i’m honestly the most OBNOXIOUS laugher in the theater. think about it, from borat to twilight, i’m always the ONLY ONE LAUGHING IT SEEMS like. for throwing me around ur apartment and screaming about waterbottles that STILL aren’t cold. for trying to eat a sandwich before 10 dollars at the pump. for buying cowboy boot sideburns with your dick blick giftcard. for driving me around way more than any boy EVER did. and probably EVER will. for always being shorter than me, but always being honestly more of a REAL guy than a lot of other boys are capable of. for being able to admit your mistakes, and for being able to tell me when i make them too. for having your own personality/style/ and not changing yourself for anyone. for being the boy i swore i never wanted, but as soon as i realized what i was missing, the boy i know i really can never live without again.
you might be the boy i swore i “never wanted”, like, a FOOT shorter than me, and ah. even my friend’s exboyfriend, but none of it matters. because i loved you yesterday, i love you today, and i’ll love you tomorrow. and guess what? this seriously ISN’T an april fools! :0)
love,
jennifer savage
okay so i talked to andrew today. i know, i shouldn’t, honestly, i know that he’s a jerk, but…
my heart still beats so much faster from him.
i broke up with dan.
some people say that “nothing’s perfect” and sometimes, you just have to settle. but i’m sorry, i refuse to do that.
i hope spring hurries.
seasons change,
but people dont.
i’m ready for spring.
i hate working.
i really should go tanning. oops.
i always forget to do my homework.
i wonder where i’m gonna end up transferring.
i’m glad i don’t do drugs/act like a trainwreck.
i have such knotty hair.
i totally ended talking to exes. cold turk.
i got crest whitestrips. finally.
i hate salt water taffy.
i love cardigan sweaters.
i’m going to nyc with dan on tues. SO EXCITED.
i want to buy a juicy bag and sunglasses. soon.
i better make 150 tomorrow or off w/my head.
i still don’t like johnny depp.
i’m less scared of the dark than i used to be.
i want to be belle at disney still.
post over.
so. life has really been (insert some random adjective here) lately.
to begin, i honestly made so much money at work this weekend that its like, UNFAIR. i made 450 bucks in four shifts, which honestly RULES and i’m so content, which is especially surprising bc this time last week i couldn’t get out of bed, so i definitely was NOT in the shape to go to work. and i’m happy because i’m going to try to be mature and not spend money as compulsively as i ALWAYS do. and giving up buying clothes for lent should also help.
unfortunately, the weekend also kind of sucked. and i usually don’t write substantial things in here, but whatever.
on friday night after work, dan, phil and i were heading from my house to friendly’s to go eat dinner at friendly’s to visit court. going around the turn around to leave, dan almost ran over a cat. not to get sidetracked, but i feel REALLY passionately about animals. EXTREMELY. not to the point where i’m a vegetarian and won’t eat anything w/ a smile, but i get really emotionally disturbed when i’m in situations where animals are in trouble or could be harmed. nonetheless, if there’s a dog walking on the side of the road, i’m the girl who will get out of the car and check for tags and make sure the dog isn’t lost. i’d seriously knock on doors if need be. anyway, back to the story. dan almost ran over a cat, so automatically, i throw open the door to make sure the cat is okay. it was late, but we saw the cat was just sitting there. i went up to the cat, which had no tags, and from my angle, he looked okay, but as soon as i walked up, it started screaming. dan and phil saw that the cat was really hurt, its leg was pretty much hanging off, and its tail looked flat and broken. i went to go look at the cat, and when i did, it came closer to me, leg HANGING off, just trying to get comfort, and screaming in pain. it’s blood was all over the road, and puss was coming out of its leg. people honestly drove past us, not even asking if everything was alright. (number 1 reason why people make me want to be sick) we ran to my house to grab a box, and ran the cat to the pet hospital, honestly FIVE minutes before they closed. on the way there, i was trying to calm it, telling it what a good job it was doing (since dan was driving like a nutso) and it just sat, and rested its head on my arm. i walked in, crying because i couldnt understand what happened to this cat, and why so many people drove past us, and probably by/over the cat, and couldn’t just be humane enough to do something. this cat was begging for attention, but instead probably got ran over multiple times, and was ignored. anyway, a specialist looked at the cat, and said it was severely underweight, had an extremely low body temperature, got its leg ripped apart and bit by some kind of animal, and had ulcers all over its stomach due to being malnourished. which really actually sounds like, someone had the cat, decided to make it an ‘outdoor’ cat, threw it outside, and forced it to TRY to fend for itself, rather starving it, and putting it in a position to be brutally attacked by another animal. and although she said it had a slim chance of survival, i still prayed that this four year old cat would make it through, because i wouldn’t have taken the selfish and horrible way out, and i would have taken care of it, and made sure it was healthy and appreciated. instead, the cat died because it was so far gone, so malnourished, so small, and so brutally ripped apart, that it could no longer fight anymore.
i am extremely sickened by this. and whoever did this to their cat, i hope they don’t get sick of their kids. they’ll just disregard them, too.
other than that, things are okay, but whew. what a mood ruiner.
i’m frustrated that i worked a double yesterday, aka the day where it was 70 degrees out, but i know spring will be coming soon. springing forward made me seriously EXHAUSTED. and mom’s making pasta for dinner and i’m excited! i’m also wearing tiffany’s earrings bc i’m a stuck up brat. bye. :0)
of all people i know, i WOULD be the one to get the virus that SO closely resembles the flu, yet has no antibiotic to uh, push me back to health. i made absolutely NO money this weekend bc i couldn’t even stand. and i’ve probably slept more than fifty hours in the past 4 days. uh. whatever!
things are good! i’m glad march is finally here bc i am SO READY for spring. i decided not to get another pair of uggs because i hate winter so muich that i’m not gona even acknowledge it. and to get back at me, quakertown now looks like the north pole.
i gave up buying clothes for lent bc i kind of buy a LOT of them, and i’m trying to save up for a new bag when spring DECIDES to come. i’m mature. when i was sick, dan and court pretty much slept right next to my bed all weekend and it was nice for them to wana take care of me, being the trainwreck that i am. we watched nick and norah’s infinite playlist, and it was byfar the stupidest movie i’ve ever seen. so, i know better. and all i ate in the past four days was wonton soup and tonight i decided to eat steak. i really just jumped off the deep end. obv.
i seriously love dan so much that it probably would nauseate everyone who read this. like, it even kind of surprises me. i’m not the kind of girl to even give a flip about boys after two months, and i seriously look at him and can’t believe i landed such an awesome boyfriend. idk if i mentioned this already, but for late valentines, we made buildabears for eachother and it was honestly the coolest thing i’ve ever done w/ a boyfriend. it may have costed like, sixty bucks a bear, but we made the best replications of eachother and dans bear seriously looks JUST like him. i have skill.
i guess i’m kind of done this post. things are pretty good lately, besides my body falling apart and sleeping my life away, but i’m really ready for staying up late, buying new sunglasses, being TAN, skipping class bc i’d rather play outside, laying on blankets with dan in my backyard, going swimming in court’s pool, scavenger hunts that are KIND OF messed up, point pleasant/seaside, mani/pedis every week, and just warm weather in general. oh and ps, my birthday is on easter.
happy late valentines day! mine was good kinda, even though it was all pretty much at work. where i should be right now, but i’m not :0) school is going okay, i dropped online spanish because i have NO idea what is going on. i should have just skipped les francais for those POINTLESS FOUR YEARS. its kinda warmer right now, and i like it! my car is running better, which is great. the only cd i only ever listen to in it is miley cyrus. obviously. dan and i are making eachother buildabears for valentines day and i’m so excited bc i never did it before! last week i cleaned out my closet/under my bed and it was nuts how much stuff i found! a lot of neat things, a lot of embarassing things. but i think it was a good time to do it. i really can’t wait for summer. i broke a blood vessel in my eye from coughing so hard. HOW EMBARASSING IS THAT! i know. i really can’t wait to go to the peace corps. and i’m also practicing singing “belle” from beauty and the beast because i still wana be her at disney world. and i will! taylor swift has such a nice little voice. i gave away 20 band shirts last week, kept a LOT though. someone at sal val is going to be PUMPED. it’s crazy how much i have changed in the past few years! i used to go to all these hardcore shows, and now the only show i have planned is seeing metrostation in like, 4 months. HAHA. loser. i take a multivitamin now because i want to be healthy. i also spent 10 dollars on lotion bc my skin is so dry! i’m really in love with dan. i really miss courtney too and i can’t wait until this weekend is over bc she’s my best friend.
this post was ALL over the place. and i wana buy a new fish.
hi. school’s going okay. i already skipped a class. pfff. what a great student! i took a four hour nap bc i’m lazy. my mom always calls me an angel. bc i am one. obv. things with dan are good, we fight SO much, i think i just seriously am a girlfriend who has so much fight in me! grr. things with court are good too. and they’re the best friends in my life, so that’s a positive! i can’t wait until it’s warm. i’m really over school. i really want a new pair of ugg boots, like, my heart is hurting thinking about it! i feel like i’ve gotten a gut since i’ve graduated. damn. my hair is seriously so knotty and i dont care. i really like 2 new songs off the fall out boy cd. i keep wanting to get manicures and then forgetting. i want to audition to be belle at disneyworld. i look like her! i’m starving.
goodbye.
so. my boyfriend is making me really want to start doing something i really left behind, i thought? my life is kind of sloppy. all i want to do is sleep. i had a real vivid dream of having a baby last night. i’m still getting over being sick. i feel like nothings going right. ugh.
bye.





