i feel like i’m going to THROW UP. is it too much to ask to just have a boy be HONEST WITH ME?!

i hate love.
i hate boys.
i hate relationships.
i don’t like kissing people.
i don’t like holding hands.
i don’t want affection.
i don’t want ANYTHING.
i want to be left alone.

if how all of my long term relationships are going to turn out is just like this, then NEVER MIND. i’d rather not.

i’m in no rush to do a lot of my lessons tonight, because i have a feeling a lot more of my time just opened up. i’d rather be planning lessons than bawling my eyes out and throwing up in the bathroom.