hey! i have no idea what this update is going to be like.

i’m still not with dan. although, i’m still kind of seeing him and it’s kind of awkward and i don’t know what to think. i mean, i really don’t want to get back together with him but it’s hard to break the routine. i just don’t trust him. at ALL. i greatly doubt that the results of us getting back together will greatly differ than the past 5 times this has happened. ugh. butttt, kids is good. i’m BUSY, but it’s money and it’s nice to be busy. i never want to go back to school and i’m seriously depressed, but it’s okay. all i wana do lately is sleep and listen to lovedrug, honestly. i’m ready for august although kids is usually a good time. i just want to lay on the beach and have a break, you know? i wish boys and relationships weren’t constant DRAMA, and i wish i knew what the right thing to do was. i’m trying to really think about this experience and grow from it and i have an awful feeling i’m going to let my insecurity and loneliness ruin it. i am SO weak it’s actually kind of pathetic. but at least i admit it, right?

hope things are better for you, cause i am a WHINERRRR.