sooo, i broke up with dan. i guess, i broke my engagement with dan if we’re going to be technical, but same thing. honestly, we’ve both changed. we hardly know each other anymore, and we really just lost the fun part of our relationship. he just changed a lot from the boy that i thought he was, and i think i’m just looking for something that i know he’s not. i mean, it’s kind of weird, but i’m just going to go with this right now. i’m allowed to be by myself and figure it out for the first time in about 7 years. i deserve this moment to be single and figure everything out. however, all of these tried (and failed) relationships have taught me a lot about what i don’t want, and what i do want especially. it’s just nothing i’ve found in a boy, thus far. however, now that my head is clear and i can actually think about it, i’m going to make a list of the things that i want in a boy, so if i ever find a potential relationship again, i can know i’m on the right track. and not just on the track of a stupid long term relationship turning into nothing.

1. i want a boyfriend who has a personality that is all their own. not one that depends on who he is with.
    i want him to confident enough in who he is that he can just be himself.
2. i want him to be open minded. i DO NOT want a racist, jerk boyfriend who is closed minded
    and says very immature things that can be taken as hurtful, and SO ignorant.
3. i want him to be responsible. pay bills, know responsiblity, etc. not complain about being broke
    when they spend frivolously and have NO bills.
4. i want him to be good with kids, and to want children, and to respect family and friends.
5. i want to him to have HIS OWN LIFE. i would love to bold, underline, anything i can do to this to make it stand out even more.
    i want a boyfriend who has his own life, his own friends, and just wants my company.
    who doesn’t depend on me for EVERYTHING IN HIS life.
6. i want him to treat my friends and family well.
7. i want him to like music that doesn’t include nickelback and like,
    the music 11th graders listen to. is that too much to ask?
8. i want him to have an opinion. even if it pisses me off, even if i don’t agree,
    i want a boy who won’t bow down to everything i say.
9. i want a boy who is respectful, and cares about what i say. who wants to listen to me.
10. i want a boyfriend who cares about important things.
      not stupid cars as a status symbol to be cool to people who don’t even matter anymore.
11. college education, clean lungs, healthy liver, nice smile, good style, and a big heart would also be greatly appreciated.

hahaha, so obviously, i’m never dating another boy again. ugh!