Bill,
I don’t know what I’m going to do without you. I’ve never had a Christmas without you trying to make me drink a rum and coke even though I hate it. I’ve never had a birthday without a ridiculous card. I’ve never had to live without you, and I’m so scared to. I can’t believe you’re gone. I want more than anything for this to be a horrible dream, and to wake up tomorrow and be able to text you just to say hey. I wanted to buy you fireworks for christmas, and when I saw them today, I teared up. I can’t believe after everything, it’s all suddenly so different. I just want you to know that you meant so much to everyone in your life. You may have been an IMPOSSIBLE person sometimes, but your support meant so much to me. Those quiet talks about our lives when we wanted eachothers opinions without mom and dad’s meant everything to me. You confided in me, and I confided in you and I would do anything to make you come back. My heart hurts so bad and the loss is going to be so apparent for the rest of my life. I was never as funny as you, you KNOW that. You can make everyone laugh and make everyone feel at ease. You always gave me relief when the situation seemed unbearable. I don’t know what I’m going to do without you. Thanks so much for everything, for remembering my birthday, for all the advice, for calling my thighs fat, for EVERYTHING. I would give anything to bring you back to me and let you live the life that you deserve. Your impact on the people in your life was so strong, even though you were only here a short time. A day won’t go by when I won’t see something that makes me laugh and smile because it will remind me of you. It hurts now, and I’m sure it will hurt forever, but I know you’re better where you are now and I’m happy to know that. I hope it’s perfect where you are, and that you can live the life that earth wouldn’t allow you to. I will talk to you everyday, I’m sorry if I’m annoying, but deal with it. No matter where you are, I’m still your little sister.

I love you more than any word could ever tell you.