hello.

things are good. i’m so busy with kids and red robin, but staying busy is never ever a bad thing. so i’m making money to make rent/electric/phone/billsbillsbills easier to handle during the school year when i can’t work as much because of school. i’m also saving for a tv! what a adult thing to buy. i’ve never bought my own tv. i used to love buying clothes. now i’m shopping at ikea and buying toilet paper. growing up is so crazy. i’m really fortunate to have my own place and have my own things and be able to get a taste of responsibility. and i’m also fortunate to have parents who help me as much as mine do.

dan and i are good. sometimes, i just get nervous about whether or not this is REALLY what i need. i feel like me and dan are really different. i love him, but i don’t know if we really have what it takes to REALLY make it. and the fact that i’m doubting that is making me wonder if i’ve wasted my time..? i don’t know. what i DO know is that i haven’t been single since i’ve been fourteen years old. i really feel pathetic for saying that. it makes me wonder if i’m really as strong of a person as i really should be at my age. but. i can’t change the past. and i’m not sure if i want to change the present, either. all i do is WHINE. yuck.

anyway. i’m completely nervous about my car inspection on thursday. my check engine light is on. :0( but i’m happy and healthy and i’ll end on that.