hey.

so things are good! school is finally over on tuesday, after i take my last final. which is freaking me out because i worked so hard in school and i don’t want it to get ruined from one grade. all a’s in all my classes thus far. so we’ll see. the last few weeks have been STRESS. money was even an issue which is weird because i have been so good financially and it was kind of rough. i worked so many doubles and everything so i finally caught myself back up. which is relieving. i went to the beach with dan and court this week which was SO much fun. so glad i went. i love the beach. i’m so excited for this summer. kind of disappointed about having to take summer classes but that’s just the price i have to pay for going to bucks. i need to stay caught up. so i’m going to do it. kind of confused as far as the whole boy situation. still. which is so dumb and i don’t know why i can’t just figure it out already. but oh well. i’ll figure it out. that’s what i always do. i just wish i wasn’t so hopeful, and that is kind of the problem. i know the signs. i know everything. i’m just continuing to hope that i’m wrong. we’ll see. i just don’t want things to become to monotanous. i hate reaching this point. and i never really reached it with him? i don’t want to think about it. my feelings are too hot and cold and it makes it so obvious how much growing up i have yet to do. which is really disappointing. and i’ll learn.

but i’m just scared that a rude awakening will be necessary in order to get that lesson.