dear diary,

do you know how hard it is to like, hide how bad i want to talk to andrew? i have enough self control to not give in this time, but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t completely suck. and i’m still not quite sure if i’m doing the right thing so its kind of a tough situation. i do like chopper. but what the EFF is it so hard to get over andrew?! ayi yi yi. watching the oc reminds me of him. i hate having my period. i don’t want to have sex w/ chopper anymore. i’m not sexually attracted to him and it’s weird. and i know thats mean but i guess thats just because i’m a bitch. ugh! i want to marry adam brody. i hope i’m losing weight. i’m not doing homework tonight bc i’m a bamf. i wish my heart could just agree w/ my mind for once. bc this is getting ridiculous.