happy ’08!

me and court went to the beach house to celebrate. probably were the only 18 year olds in the world who ate junk food and drank waters all night. oh well. this iss the way i liveeee. chopper’s cute. i still have major feelings for andrew though. i really wish i freaking didn’t. ugh. oh well. pretty much cut dan off because i can’t believe he ignored me ALL week. its 7:10 am and i’m seriously awake and i’m not sure why. being at the beach house was weird because of the awkward things that went on there. and its just weird to think that we were all so close, and now the “table” isn’t even a table anymore. it’s strange. i wish i didn’t have feelings for andrew. i wish i could just cut him off like i cut off devin, even though that was kind of tough too. but nothing at all compared to this, that’s for sure. i seriously didn’t even think of him for a while there. damn. i really miss summer, and i want this year to be better than last. so i’m going to have to work harder to make better decisions that don’t involve being reckless with both my feelings and others. i should probably start by stopping my communication with andrew. that would make sense… but, we’ll see. i’m ready to start school again, is that weird? i need a little bit more going on in my life right now because i have too much time to sit around and think about things that i shouldn’t. i’m debating picking up more shifts at red robin but i just hate it there so i’m not sure what i’m going to decide. i’m not a fan of work. i like rosemaries better. aka eat eat eat eat. but uh, yeah. so, i think i’m going to go try to go back to bed bc i haven’t been up this early since high school. haha. but, i’ll keep you aware.